I'M NO LONGER 'ME'..

it is hard for me, when i'm no longer 'me'.. i am a talkative person.. i always point out my views and arguments..
i always tell jokes n sometime, i do shuffle(only when im wit my sis).. hehe.. juz a stupid shuffle actually, coz i dont know shuffle..
but, i can no longer do/be wat i used to do/be.. quite disappointed coz i cannot be 'ME'.. 

i didnt talk so much now.. usually, i juz keep my mouth shut.. no jokes.. n etc..
n i even hate so much when i cannot point out my views n arguments.. i was trained to do dat..
when people point out a wrong arguments, supposedly i correct them back.. or i'll make the rite arguments..

it's hard for me.. coz, i cant practice my skill n also my knowledge.. like i stated before, i was trained to do dat.. but when i cant do all those things, it hurt me.. it is all bcoz of one incident.. dat incident change my life.. i want the old 'ME'.. i'll never 4get the incident.. coz of dat incident, i am no longer 'ME'.. 

but, i 'll make sure dat i will be the old 'ME'.. i'll my very best to do dat.. insyaAllah, i am who i am.. i'll be as i was trained b4.. inilah REALITI HIDUP..