HATE TO HATE YOU..

"ku sangke panas smpai ke ptg, rupanye hujan di tengah hari".. nilah pepatah org tua2..

 betol ke?? sape penah rase msg sye ye.. hahaha.. sakit sgt rasanya.. x tahan nk tanggung kesakitan tu.. betapa kecewany aku time dikhabarkn berita ini.. aku rse dunia aku gelap.. aku blank + blur + ??

 i try to hate him.. try not to look at him.. try to avoid him.. dye bg harapan kt aku.. mcm2 yg dye bwat, menyebabkn aku pasang harapan yg sgt tinggi.. but then, all of a sudden, he stopped communicate wit me.. i dont know what hv i done.. i dont know wat is wrong wit him.. i dont know wat is happening between us.. please dont do this to me..

aku penah ckp, "aku x nk pasang harapn tinggi2.. aku takot kalau jatuh.. nnt aku yg sakit".. tp, secara x sengaje, aku da berharap kt dye.. but, when it happened, aku jatuh dlm harapan.. i've made up my mind.. i dont want to look at him anymore..

but my close fren told me dat, "jgn wat cmtu.. tengoklah dye slagi ko bleh nmpk dye.. tgk n hayati lah dye slagi ko boleh.. even dr jauh pn.. nnt ble ko da x bleh nmpk dye, ko akan slalu rindu kt dye and u'll regret it".. and i listened to da advise..

i hate myself coz i cant even hate him.. i hate to hate him.. coz i love him..i always said dat, "aku benci dye".. but da truth is, i love him.. betol lah ckp org2 tua.. "kusangka panas sampai ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari".. i still hoping dat he'll be wit me.. hilangnya dirimu, menusuk hati ku.. hingga ku terjatuh, dalam harapan.. inilah REALITI HIDUP..